Emily Anne Matthews January 26 2008

Blaine and I just wanted to say thank you very much for all who have called and given us support during these past two weeks. As many of you know we buried our daughter Emily yesterday. We wanted to just keep it to manly family and some friends. Since most everyone else in our world thought that this was over like we did. Emily is now at the City of Mesa Cemetery. She is in one of the new infant sections. We had to get a bigger casket for her not just the normal preemie casket she was to long and big for one of those. We had to get a 19" casket since she was 14" long. It was such a nice day yesterday not to hot. We didn't have any type of service we just dedicated the grave and then sent everyone home and Blaine and I stayed to watch them close the grave. Blaine dedicated the grave and did a really good job with the prayer. He was really stressing out over it all week. This is not something that you plan on doing or even dream about dedicating your child's grave and he did really great and I was very proud of him. We have picked out her headstone and we can place it in three months after the ground settles. Thank you again for all of the love,support and financial help that so many of you have given us the past few weeks we couldn't of done it without you.

Happy Easter

Hope you all had a good Easter Sunday. I taught the lesson today in YW. Well actually power point taught the lesson in YW but it went really good. After church and all the family got hear we had an easter egg hunt with all the kids and our friends Tim and Ashley brought their kids. Everyone had a fun time. Ryan got a Garbage truck and a T-Ball set. He loves to watch the garbage truck when it comes and the one he got looks just like the one that comes to the house. Well thats all for now. Hope you all had a great easter.

Will It Ever End

So as most of you we lost Emily January 26th. When we had her Blaine signed a paper turning her over to the hospital and they told us that they would take care of the rest. Well they didn't. I got a phone call on Monday from a social worker at St. Joes she was very very nice. I figured that she was going to do one of those how was your stay surveys. Well it was far from that. I guess the state has been bugging the hospital for the death certificate. So the lady called asking if we had contacted a funeral home yet. I was like no. I told her that we thought they had handled everything. Well that's not the way it works. If you loose you baby after 20 weeks you have to go through a funeral home and they handle the cremation or the burial. So I was like so you still have Emily at the hospital? The answer was yes. I couldn't believe it. It has been almost two months and they are just calling me now.
At the time we had her we thought that when we signed her over to the hospital that they would cremate her. And at the time that was the best thing for us because I was so sick so we needed to get me better so we just thought they had done everything already. So we had to sit down and decided if cremation was what we really wanted. It defiantly would have been the cheaper route. Cremation would have been about $300.00. We have decided to bury Emily at the mesa cemetery. Holy cow it is sooo expensive. I think when it is all said and done it will be around $1500. Talk about having something you thought was taken care of thrown in your face. My family has been saying that all of this could be a blessing in disguise. Now we will know where she is and we can take our family to her grave.
I know that the grave can be comforting sometimes. I know that it was for me with my brother Ryan. Unfortunately we don't get to go their that often because he is in Texas but when I have it is still nice to go.
So we are basically going to be dedicating the grave next Friday with just our family. It will be nice to finally get some closure. I am so grateful for all of our friends and family who are helping us through this difficult emotional time. Thank you to Paula(Prince)Layton who grew up with Blaine in 12th ward. She works and the funeral home that we are using and she is handling everything personally. So it helps a lot to know that she is watching out for us and our daughter. We called her on Monday after we got the call from the hospital and by Tuesday afternoon they had gone to pick her up and bring her to mesa. Thank you so much for you help.
So that is our crazy life at the moment. I would never wish this on my worst enemy it was hard the first time but I really didn't go through all the grieving because I was so sick. This time I have felt it all. Its like we have lost her all over again.
I went to the temple this morning with the YW to do baptisms for the dead. I can't tell you what a great feeling their was there this morning. I did really good not to cry I did tear up a few times while I was sitting there thinking. I know that my little brother Ryan is taking care of my Emily until I can again. It was such a great comfort to feel that.
Thank you all again for all the support you have given to our family during the past three months. I hope you all have a great Easter.

Ward Easter Egg Hunt

Our ward had a easter egg hunt the other day at the park. Ryan had a lot of fun. He really got the hang of the putting the eggs in the basket better this year. It will be fun to see what he dose at our family hunt on Sunday.

Like Father Like Son

What a typical boy thing to do. He has seen his daddy reading on the potty before so he picked up the comics to be just like dad. The funny thing is that he did this on his own Blaine thought it was so funny he took a picture with his camera phone.

Suns Game

The start of the Suns Game 3/7/08
You can see Shaq the big guy in the middle.


So I am a little late in posting this but it's better late than never right. Our 4 year wedding anniversary was on the 5th however because it was in the middle of the week we really didn't go and do anything. That weekend we were going away so it didn't matter. So I have been telling Blaine since the middle of February that I got him something good this year. He always guesses what I have get him for any holidays and I had been doing such a great job keeping this secret. So I got us Suns tickets for the Friday night game against the Jazz. We usually try to go to a suns game once during the season. So I decided after everything that has happened this year so far that I would get better tickets for us. So I went to the Suns ticket exchange where season ticket holders will sell their seats to certain games. I usually buy upper level nose bleed seats for $30 but this year I thought I would pay a little extra to make it special. So I got lower level seats right in front of the suites. We were behind the suns bench and had a really great view. This was a really fun game because we were getting to see the "Big Guy" (Shaq) in person. It was his best game since he came to the suns. Even though we lost at the end it was a really good game. I think that we were on our feet for most of it cheering. So all in all it was a great anniversary this year. It seems like a lot of time when you have kids and work and life that you forget about things or take things for granted. After what we have lived through so far this year we have really been reminded how fragile life is. You have all heard that saying live today as if it where your last. or something like that how true that is. You never know when a simple illness can turn into something more. So try not to take anything for granted cherish everyday that you have with your loved ones.
Anyway enough with my soap box. I have put some pictures of the game hope you all enjoy.

Blaine and I at the Suns gameShaq in action

Dr Update

Good News !!!!!
I went to my new OB doctor yesterday. I have switched back to the Doctor who delivered Ryan she handles more complicated pregnancies she is technically not "High Risk" but Blaine and I both feel more comfortable with her. So yesterday was my 6 week check up. She said that everything looks good. She said that she has had patients with my problem not nearly as bad as I got but with the bleeding and stuff she said that she hasn't seen it happen in the same patientmore than once. She said to come back when I'm pregnant again.

In Memory of GGPA

Henry Eugene Morgan "Grandpop & GGPA"

July 12, 1926

February 26, 2008
I got a call last Tuesday after putting Ryan on the bus for school from my dad that my Grandpa Morgan had past away. I took the news of his passing harder than I thought I would however he passed away on the one month anniversary of loosing Emily. Grandpop was living with my parents in Pennsylvania. My dad said that they were having the service for him on Saturday and that they were going to fly us out if we wanted to come. Ryan and I flew out the next day on Wednesday. Blaine took the red eye out on Saturday morning because he had clipper deliveries. I think at one point their was close to 70-80 people at the house for dinner after the service. Ryan did really good with all the people this time we were all really surprised. It was nice to have the whole family together again. Granted we were all back their at Christmas so we were able to see him then as well. The service was more like a viewing where people were able to stand around and watch the slide show and talk about all the fun memories. It was nice to come home to warm weather. The day I got their it was 25 and when I went to go and get Blaine Saturday morning it was snowing. We are defiantly Arizona people. Grandpop know that you are loved and will be greatly missed.

Happy 4th Anniversary

To my Husband I hope you know how much I love you. Your are the best. With everything that we have gone through especially this year you always make things better. I love being your wife.
Happy Anniversary Baby:)